‘It was a real carnival of the senses’: Shamil Tanna’s best phone picture

‘It was a real carnival of the senses’: Shamil Tanna’s best phone picture
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‘There’s a slight voyeuristic quality to using a phone to take pictures,” Shamil Tanna says. The London-based photographer was in Menorca last summer for Fiestas de Sant Lluìs, a series of events “revolving around the island’s purebred horses and traditional Menorcan dressage”.

“I was staying on the island for a while and was keen to shoot some personal projects,” he says. “I’d just replaced my old phone and the festivities provided a good opportunity to try the new model out. It was super-busy, full of people, horses, parades and music – a real carnival of the senses.”

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Tanna notes that using a phone rather than a bigger SLR allows you to photograph people in a very informal and inconspicuous way. It makes it much easier to shoot under the radar: “The quality of iPhone images nowadays is crazy good – with a bit of TLC you can produce absolutely fine prints for an A4 frame.”

For this image and the wider set he captured that summer, he used the app VSCO for editing. “I have a preset that grades the images with lots of colour saturation and contrast to really make them pop, then added a load of film grain,” he says. “I’m a big fan of doing this; some digital photographs are a bit too clinical and sharp for me. Adding grain helps them feel more organic.”

Meet the Indigenous performers reviving and re-imagining the art of dance

Meet the Indigenous performers reviving and re-imagining the art of dance

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Margaret Grenier grew up immersed in the traditions of her Gitxsan and Cree ancestry, traditions that are only around today because her parents and grandparents fought to keep them alive.

“I was very fortunate because I grew up as one of the first generations to grow up with song and dance once again,” said Grenier, executive and artistic director of the Dancers of Damelahamid.

The songs and dances of Grenier’s people were almost completely lost due to a part of the Indian Act known as the potlatch ban which made traditional dance and regalia illegal across Canada from 1885 to 1951.

Dance holds an important place in Gitxsan traditions as they relate oral history. 

“Our people don’t have a creation story in terms of like when the land was created,” Grenier said. “But we speak about a time when the people of the Damelahamid started and that was when our first three ancestors were placed on earth and our original earthly home became known as Damelahamid.”

During the ban, Grenier’s grandmother hid the family’s regalia within the walls of her home to protect and maintain them. Once the ban ended in 1951, Grenier’s mother and father worked to revitalize traditional dance. 

An Indigenous woman dances on a stage while two drummers perform behind her.
Rebecca Baker-Grenier, centre, dances as part of the performance Raven Mother, at the Vancouver Coastal Dance Festival in Vancouver. (Chris Randle)

Across Turtle Island and beyond, Indigenous dancers are fighting to occupy dance spaces and venues that excluded their ancestors. Grenier is part of a growing movement inspiring a new generation of dancers to reclaim sovereignty over dance forms previously lost. 

“It has been the women in our family that have carried forward the work,” Grenier said. “And I think that it’s something that we want to be able to leave to our daughters and we want to be able to do it in a way that they can bring their voice to the stories that are going to come.”

Grenier’s newest work, Raven Mother, celebrates the legacy of her late mother Margerat Harris who Grenier says is the reason  Gitxsan people “even have song and dance today.”

The piece premiered at the Vancouver Coastal Dance Festival earlier this year. Grenier runs the festival, to ensure that Indigenous dancers always have a space to celebrate a culture that wasn’t always welcomed in Western dance venues.

“The festival is intended to be a space to hold their community, to allow our artists to represent their families, their communities, their songs, their stories, their dances in a way that’s true to themselves,” said Grenier.

‘Let’s gather all together’

In Quebec, Ivanie Aubin-Malo always found spaces and opportunities to celebrate and support her love of contemporary dance. However, she couldn’t find regular meeting spaces to partake in pow wow dance.

“I graduated from the École de danse Contemporaine de Montréal in 2014,” Aubin-Malo said. “After that, I really wanted to focus on my Indigenous identity. And I was like: ‘It’s through dance, but how can I start that?'”

An Indigenous woman in a flowing magenta dress dances in front of a white background.
Ivanie Aubin-Malo is a pow wow dancer and contemporary dancer based in Montreal. (Mario Faubert)

Aubin-Malo eventually attended the Canada Dance Festival in Ottawa and met James Jones, also known as Notorious Cree on TikTok, who encouraged her to travel to Vancouver and learn more about pow wow dance. In the months she spent there, she gathered regularly with other dancers and learned a type of pow wow dance called Fancy Shawl.

Eager to keep on with the practice, Aubin-Malo searched out a similar space in Montreal. And while there were places like the Friendship Centre that accommodated drumming, no spaces were big enough to regularly host dancers.

“So when an Indigenous organization wants to organize workshops …it can take place over a session — and then it stops,” she said.

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A one-of-a-kind event where powwow dancers and dancers outside of the pow wow community have gathered together to take part together in a powwow at the Place des Arts in Montreal, Quebec (Ivanie Abin-Malo)

That’s when Aubin-Malo decided to take matters into her own hands. In 2021, she started a collective with two others where they hosted 30 Indigenous-only workshops over three years at the Place des Arts in Montreal. Aubin-Malo says this was intentional so that each Indigenous dancer would feel comfortable in the space.

All this work culminated in a one-of-a-kind event where dancers were invited to come together at a pow wow. Aubin-Malo calls the celebration MAQAHATINE, which translates from Wolastoqey to “Let’s gather all together.” 

“Like any pow wow, it’s open for everyone,” said Aubin-Malo. “I wanted for the contemporary dancers to feel familiar and to feel good in a space, but I also wanted the pow wow community to take over that space.”

‘It was the Norwegians that danced’

The idea of taking over a space — or in this case land — is a concept familiar to Sámi contemporary dancer and choreographer, Elle Sofe Sara.

In Norway, Sámi communities have lost land due to resource extraction and the climate crisis. Inspired by the political protests in her homeland, Sara choreographed Vastadus Eana: The answer is land to examine reclamation of Sámi identity.

A young woman smiles for the camera, wearing a winter jacket and toque, outside.
Elle Sofe Sara is a contemporary dancer and choreographer based in Norway. (FotoDesign/DanceHouse)

“When I was younger, I did a project about [dance] to interview elders in my area about dancing and actually asked my neighbour,” said Sara. “He said that they didn’t dance. It was the Norwegians that danced.”

As Sara pushed for more answers, she discovered that her people did not dance in the traditional sense of the word. When they would joik — a form of singing in Sámi culture — they would sway, adjust the belts on their girdles and do other natural movements.

Sara utilized these movements, her knowledge of contemporary dance and Sámi joiks to create a piece that speaks to the trauma that comes with colonialism, assimilation and displacement. 

“Some of the joiks here that we have are also about Sámi who have been displaced,” Sara said. “And I think also many indigenous people have lost their home or have been taken away from their home in different ways.”

Six to eight dancers in black clothing and red hats, some of them holding megaphones, perform or rehearse on a theatre stage.
Performers take part in Vastadus Eana: The answer is land, choreographed by Elle Sofe Sara, a work designed to examine reclamation of Sámi identity. (Knut Aaserud/DanceHouse)

Vastadus Eana includes Sámi sayings that encourage people to think about how they live with the land rather than off of the land. It’s a call for others to acknowledge land and protect it.

“People are raising their voice more,” said Sara. “I think that of course the young generation is the loudest, but I think … older people are also seeing that many things in the system are very wrong, so we have to raise our voice.”

Grenier is equally proud of the younger generation. As the work to revitalize ancestral traditions continues, young dancers are becoming more steadfast in their Indigenous identities, making her grandmother’s dream a reality.

Caving photographer Sam Davis shines a light on his underground camera passion

Caving photographer Sam Davis shines a light on his underground camera passion

Cave photography calls for a varied range of skills, with stamina, endurance and an ability to operate in confined spaces near the top of the list. 

As it’s a subject many of us will be in the dark about, what could be better than taking a deep dive into the discipline from a leading practitioner? 

Exploration and adventure photographer Sam Davis is based in Powys in Wales and has been caving since childhood. 

A love of the great outdoors and hunger for travel led him to become a photographer and two of his passions will take centre stage at The Photography & Video Show this month. 

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’Gracie Sharp, Los Gours, down Coventosa Cave, Cantabria, Spain’, photographed by Sam Davis (Image credit: © Sam Davis)

What will you be covering in your talk?

My talk is called ‘Illuminating the Underworld’ and it will be about cave photography – taking photos underground in natural passageways and also in mines or anywhere there’s no light and where some unusual access equipment is required to get there. 

Photograph titled Pete Hall Los Gours down Coventosa Cave Cantabria Spain. Photographed by Sam Davis

’Pete Hall, Los Gours, down Coventosa Cave, Cantabria, Spain’, photographed by Sam Davis (Image credit: © Sam Davis)

What has your photography journey been to date?

I’ve always been a big traveller, ever since I went on holidays with my parents – expeditions to caves in Spain and Slovenia and places like that. 

I grew up in the Yorkshire Dales and was surrounded by caves, so they were a big part of my life. When I graduated from university, I went backpacking around the world and that’s when my photography started getting better.

I was caving less back then but gradually picked it up again over the past few years, and have taken my acquired photography skills underground – starting to experiment and see what I could produce.

Photograph of Sam Davis in Cueva las Cosas, Cantabria, Spain. Photographed by Sam Davis

’Sam Davis in Cueva las Cosas, Cantabria, Spain’, photographed by Sam Davis (Image credit: © Sam Davis)

Did any photographers or other influences inspire you when you were getting started?

Absolutely – a photographer called Jerry Wooldridge, who was a family friend. He passed away last year and was a pioneer in the underground photography world. 

A couple of years ago he was kind enough to spend about two and a half hours on the phone with me, discussing cave photography techniques and the challenges that he used to face with film, things such as batteries and getting equipment underground.

He was definitely one of my biggest inspirations. In 2018, we had the Thailand cave rescue, which produced several films and TV series. 

Seeing what was done with the underground cinematography has been really inspiring, too. I think the Thailand cave rescue has inspired a new generation of cavers.

Photograph of Chris Hunter in Anastomosis Chamber Renada. Photographed by Sam Davis

’Chris Hunter in Anastomosis Chamber, Renada’, photographed by Sam Davis (Image credit: © Sam Davis)

For anyone not familiar with caving photography, what are the technical challenges?

The main thing is getting your gear into the cave and making choices about what you’re going to take and what you’re going to leave behind. 

Is your gear portable enough, is it delicate? Is it weather-sealed or is it drop-proof? There are lots of different factors to consider, most related to the cameras themselves. 

The other challenges are how you are going to protect your equipment while you’re getting it to the area where you want to take photographs. 

Are you just going to put it in a camera bag, a dry bag – which is what I do – or are you going to lock it in a hard case? They weigh a lot more, so you’ve got a choice to make there as well. 

So it’s a big trade-off between size and weight and also just how robust the gear is. And then, at the other end of the scale, are you compromising on the image quality by making choices based on the toughness of a camera?

Photograph titled Amanda in El Cubillon. Photographed by Sam Davis

’Amanda in El Cubillon, Spain’, photographed by Sam Davis (Image credit: © Sam Davis)

What is your camera setup for a typical caving expedition?

A lot of it is setting out my objectives before I go down into the cave. For a planned photo trip, I will take my OM System OM-5, an M.Zuiko Digital ED 8mm F1.8 Fisheye Pro lens and an M.Zuiko Digital ED 12-45mm F4 Pro lens. 

I’d also take a macro lens if we’re looking at photographing little details in the cave, but generally speaking, I just take my 8mm and 12-45mm lenses. 

If we’re going to be doing any storytelling about people within the cave, and taking any portraits of them, then I might consider something like the M.Zuiko Digital 45mm F1.8, which is a really small Olympus lens. 

Lighting-wise, there are choices to make. Are we going to use continuous lighting, as in the LED torches that are useful for exploring the caves, or are we going to take a camera flash setup with us? 

They’re probably about the same weight, but there are pros and cons to each system, which is something I’m going to go through in my talk. It’s all about bringing light where there is no light and using those lights quite fastidiously.

Photograph of Sam Davis, one of the speakers at The Photography & Video Show 2024

Sam Davis, one of the speakers at The Photography & Video Show 2024 (Image credit: © Sam Davis)

Will your talk cover any practical pointers for how to get started in cave photography?

I’ll be suggesting how to get into caving because I was almost born into it and in that sense was lucky. But for people who live in cities and towns, who don’t have access to caves – or think they don’t – there are lots of caving clubs around and my advice would be to join one. In my talk, I’ll explain how to go about doing that. 

Then, I’ll move on to photography, the equipment and all the considerations I mentioned earlier – image quality versus the toughness of the gear and the choices you have to make – and finally, I’ll share the typical setups I use and the technical side of the different lighting configurations.

See Sam Davis’s talk at The Photography Show

’Illuminating the Underworld’ with Sam Davis takes place on the Behind the Lens stage at The Photography & Video Show on Sunday March 17  at 2.45pm. The talk is free to attend. 

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Portrait photograph of Sam Davis, a photographer and one of the speakers at The Photography & Video Show 2024

With a love of being outdoors and travel, Davis also has a passion for exploration and visual storytelling. His photography covers various genres, including landscapes, portraits, wildlife, action and adventure. An enthusiastic user of OM System’s Micro Four Thirds cameras, Davis is also a qualified drone pilot. In recent years, he has used his experience as a caver to add a fresh perspective to his work.

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Celebrity photographer arrested for alleged sexual assault during shoot

Celebrity photographer arrested for alleged sexual assault during shoot

Newly released footage from the scene of a fatal crash in Encino last month shows the moments when Los Angeles Police Department officers attempted to save three teenagers from the burning vehicle. At about 12:15 a.m. on Feb. 20, officers spotted a Toyota Camry driving on Balboa Avenue with its lights off.

Officers declined to begin a pursuit, but the vehicle — containing three friends who live near each other — sped off anyway before crashing into a traffic pole at Balboa and Ventura Boulevard, police said. Officers deployed their batons to gain entry into the vehicle, which was driven by an unlicensed 14-year-old.

KTLA’s Chris Wolfe reports on March 8, 2024.

Details: https://ktla.com/news/local-news/video-shows-lapd-attempt-to-save-teens-from-fatal-car-fire-in-encino/

Douglas Kirkland’s Immortal Celebrity Portraits, Revisited

Douglas Kirkland’s Immortal Celebrity Portraits, Revisited

When the photographer Douglas Kirkland died, in October 2022, he left behind a legacy of kindness and romance. Anyone who crossed his path can attest to the former, and Françoise, Doug’s mate of 56 years, volunteers passionate memories unprompted in support of the latter. His photographs remain a shimmering testament to both qualities.

Even among artists, who often become more absorbed with the characters in their field of endeavor than with their own families, Doug was exceptional. He formed a tribe of his colleagues and comrades, defined by goodwill and generosity. In the rough-and-tumble, acutely territorial, and occasionally backstabbing world of photographic journalism, Doug stood apart for his intelligent curiosity, instant understanding, and empathy.

Bearing witness: Edward Burtynsky captures humanity’s impact on the natural world

Bearing witness: Edward Burtynsky captures humanity’s impact on the natural world

Edward Burtynsky, with a career spanning over four decades, has become synonymous with capturing the profound impacts of human industry on Earth. This theme takes centre stage in the recently opened exhibition at the Saatchi Gallery, titled BURTYNSKY: Extraction/Abstraction – the largest exhibition to date of works by the Canadian photographer.

Curated by Marc Mayer, former director of the National Gallery of Canada and Musée d’art contemporain de Montréal, the exhibition spans two floors and is organised into five thematic sections: Abstraction, Agriculture, Extraction, Manufacturing & Industry, and Waste. Featuring 94 large-format photographs, 13 high-resolution murals, and an augmented reality (AR) experience, BURTYNSKY: Extraction/Abstraction offers a profound narrative on humanity’s incursion into the natural world, and the environmental consequences of industrial processes.

Oil Bunkering #9, Niger Delta, Nigeria, 2016

Nickel Tailings #34, Sudbury, Ontario, Canada, 1996

Uralkali Potash Mine #1, Berezniki, Russia, 2017

A standout feature of the exhibition is the 22-minute multimedia experience, In the Wake of Progress, co-produced with music producer Bob Ezrin. This immersive presentation, four decades in the making, weaves together Burtynsky’s powerful visuals and Ezrin’s award-winning music to immerse audiences in the story of human industry’s impact on Earth.

Burtynsky in Belridge, California, USA, 2003

Burtynsky on the Bonneville Salt Flats, USA, 2008

Burtynsky with Jim Panou in Agbogbloshie Recycling Yard, Accra, Ghana, 2017

The exhibition will also highlight both local and national organisations that are making positive contributions to the areas of sustainability, biodiversity loss, conservation, and climate change through a dedicated interactive space and online materials.

As visitors engage with Burtynsky’s work, they are not only invited to appreciate the beauty of his compositions but also compelled to reflect on the collective responsibility humans bear towards the planet and the imperative to shape a more sustainable future.

Tailings Pond #2, Wesselton Diamond Mine, Kimberley, Northern Cape, South Africa, 2018

Cathedral Grove #1, Vancouver Island, British Columbia, Canada, 2017

Thjorsá River #1, Iceland, 2012

BURTYNSKY: Extraction/Abstraction is on display at the Saatchi Gallery until 6 May

Actress Ashley Grace: Fashion Photographer Raped Me During Shoot

Actress Ashley Grace: Fashion Photographer Raped Me During Shoot

In September of last year, former model and actress Ashley Grace posted a simple Instagram story: a leafy green tree shining in the sun, a clear blue sky behind it. Over the top, in black-and-white typewriter font, she wrote, “To every rape victim that is retraumatized by watching society debate and focus their attention on what is going to happen to the RAPIST, I see you.” She finished it with a heart emoji.

The story could have gone largely unnoticed: the message was vague and Grace’s Instagram following modest. But the timing was conspicuous. She posted it one day after a Los Angeles judge handed down a lengthy sentence to actor Danny Masterson, who had been convicted of raping two women—and who co-starred on the TV series That 70s Show with Grace’s husband, Topher Grace.

The internet lit up with articles and comments about the post, with fans wondering whether it was a coded message to Mila Kunis and Ashton Kutcher, two other That 70’s Show alumni who wrote a letter to the judge defending Masterson. “Topher Grace’s wife breaks silence after That 70’s Show stars support Danny Masterson,” one headline read.

What online commentators did not know—what Grace has not shared publicly, until now—is that the post was much more personal. A lawsuit she filed in November in New York Supreme Court alleges that 16 years ago Grace was raped by a high-profile fashion photographer who lured her into his apartment with promises of stardom. The encounter changed the course of her life, she says, driving her out of New York, out of the modeling industry, and eventually out of entertainment altogether.

Three other women have already anonymously accused the photographer, Seth Sabal, of sexual harassment—allegations he forcefully denied. But Grace lived in fear of speaking up: for her career, for safety, for what her friends and family would think.

Only now, at 35, after starting over as a social worker and raising a family, does she feel ready to come forward with her story.

“Everything I was afraid of does not hold the weight it did when I was [younger],” she told The Daily Beast in an exclusive interview. “He no longer holds any power over me.”

Topher and Ashley Grace

Topher and Ashley Grace attend the 2019 Vanity Fair Oscar Party

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Grace grew up in Indiana, a church-going teen pageant queen and high school theater star. As a teenager, someone suggested she try modeling, and she signed with a small agency in Chicago. That led to shoots with Abercrombie and Fitch, which led to a modeling competition, which led to her signing with a major modeling agency, which led to her moving—at age 17, entirely alone—to New York City.

Grace’s life in the big city was more exciting than she could have anticipated, but also less glamorous: She lived in a crowded “model apartment” owned by her agency, then in a tiny one-bedroom in Bushwick where she subsisted largely on boxed mac and cheese. She worked at the whim of her agency, taking whatever shoots they booked in hopes of catching her big break.

One of those shoots was with Seth Sabal, a high-fashion photographer who has shot for brands including Calvin Klein, Donna Karan, and Victoria’s Secret. It was a “test shoot,” meaning she would not get paid, but Grace was thrilled at the chance to work with such a big name.

But as soon as she got to Sabal’s studio, things felt off. Grace was 18, still attending church regularly and rarely drinking. In her suit, she says Sabal pressured her to down vodka cranberries and pose without underwear. She felt uncomfortable, but when he asked her agency if they could shoot again—for a major magazine, and for a fee—she felt she couldn’t say no.

At the second shoot in August 2008, Grace says, Sabal asked her to work with him again, but without the involvement of her agency. She says she pushed back but he insisted, claiming it was “a hassle to go through her agents [and] that he did not have time,” according to the lawsuit. Eager for more exposure and hurting for money, she acquiesced.

“I think I made the decision that I thought was safest for me in that moment.”

— Ashley Grace

About a week later, Grace, then 19, returned to Sabal’s Tribeca studio, which doubled as his apartment. The suit alleges that the shoot began like the others, with Sabal, then 30, pushing liquor on her as she sat through hair and makeup. Grace says she felt somewhat calmed by the presence of Sabal’s then-girlfriend, model Yuliana Bondar, but alleges that she became concerned when the hair and makeup team left and Bondar appeared in the living room with her “outfit” for the shoot: a single pair of nylons with nothing underneath.

Bondar flitted in and out of the room as Sabal began to pose Grace in increasingly suggestive ways, the suit claims. She begged Bondar to stay in the living room with them but was brushed off, with Bondar telling her the photographs Sabal was taking would “change [her] career because they were going to be so good,” the suit claims.

After 15 or 20 minutes, Sabal suggested a change of scenery. He led her into a bedroom, pressured her to snort cocaine and get on the bed, then turned on a video camera and aimed it at her, despite her protestations. Drunk, high, and paralyzed with fear, Grace followed Sabal’s commands to pose for the camera, even as he climbed on top of her and raped her, the suit claims.

“I think I made the decision that I thought was safest for me in that moment, “ Grace told The Daily Beast. “Which was to go [internally] somewhere else.”

Leaving the apartment afterward, Grace says, she stopped to think about how hideous the building’s door looked. (“I think I remember that because I was so happy to be outside,” she says.) Then she walked home, sat on the floor of the shower, and cried.

To this day, she says, one of her biggest regrets is not telling anyone what had happened.

“If I could wave a wand, I would walk out of the apartment, I’d walk into the next bodega and ask to call the police,” she said. “That is what I wish I could get that back: the opportunity to ensure that he could not do that to somebody else.”

Ashley Grace

Photo Illustration by Luis G. Rendon/The Daily Best/Getty/Handout

Grace spoke to The Daily Beast this week from her “office” on the top floor of her California home, which was littered with her three kids’ toys and, in the corner, an unused Peloton. “When I started getting my master’s program, I had these dreams of this being an adult space,” she said with a laugh. “That lasted about three weeks.”

Now a licensed social worker and adjunct professor at Cal State University in Northridge, she speaks with the confidence of an academic versed in the language of trauma. She refers to what happened to her as a backpack full of rocks—one she can never take off, but which she can remove the weight from, stone by stone.

But it took years for Grace to get to a place where she could discuss her experience with anyone, much less a reporter. After the assault, she spent a “dark” few years in New York before moving to Los Angeles to pursue acting and a fresh start. She landed roles on Workaholics, True Blood, and True Detective, and met her husband at an event for a charity that sent actors to children’s hospitals. But the industry felt too similar to modeling, she says, and she lived with the fear that “every situation I was in could turn it into what happened to me that night.”

It was Topher who suggested she try therapy, after she told him about Sabal and other past traumas. The experience affected her so greatly that she decided to go back to school, enrolling in college for the first time at 26 to study social work.

“Once I realized that somebody could be in this much pain and something might actually be able to help, it was the only meaningful thing I could think of doing with my life,” she said.

Still, she occasionally found herself Googling Sabal to see if anyone had reported similar behavior. In 2018, as the Me Too movement reached its zenith, she stumbled on a Boston Globe story about sexual misconduct by fashion photographers that included claims against Sabal. Three models interviewed by the paper’s vaunted Spotlight team accused him of sexual harassment, including one who claimed Sabal plied her with alcohol and asked to take off her underwear when she was just 17.

Sabal denied these claims in a statement from his lawyer at the time, saying he had “never sexually harassed anyone and never forced anyone to do something they weren’t comfortable with.” His lawyer took care to add that he had not lost any work as a result of the allegations, saying he was semi-retired but still taking on “special projects,” and that “people from different points in his career” had reached out to offer their support.

“He would never do any of the things that were hinted at and the allegations that were made were somewhat obtuse. Some anonymous model making sort of vague allegations,” his lawyer at the time, Carlos Carvajal, told Women’s Wear Daily. “Seth is very comfortable with his reputation that he built over 30 years.”

Sabal and Carvajal did not respond to multiple requests for comment for this story.

“A light bulb clicked. I couldn’t believe that I hadn’t realized until that moment that this person holds no power over me anymore.”

— Ashley Grace

Grace said she had hoped up until this point that she had been an outlier; that there was something unique about her that caused Sabal to target her. When she read the Boston Globe article, she realized she was wrong. She reached out to the reporters on the story, telling them she had an allegation that went even further than what they had printed and asking if they were planning a follow-up. They were not.

“For a second, [I thought] maybe I was going to be brave enough to say something,” she said. “And then the opportunity wasn’t there, and so I just clammed back up again.”

Until, that is, six months ago, when she posted what she thought would be a largely unremarkable Instagram story. She wouldn’t comment specifically on Masterson, but said of the post: “I feel compelled to speak up when survivors are not centered in the story of their own trauma.”

“I saw victims that were seeking justice—and had won justice—and that’s really where the conversation should be: the bravery that it takes and the strength that it takes to get to that point,” she added later. “We don’t need the cacophony of nonsense that continues to follow the perpetrator at that point. Just no.”

Ashley Grace

Photo Illustration by Luis G. Rendon/The Daily Best/Getty/Handout

It wasn’t long after the Instagram post that Grace was struck with the inspiration to file her suit. Cal State had recently asked her to teach a class on child abuse and neglect, with a section on child sexual abuse. When she started the sexual abuse unit, she said, her office hours became a “revolving door” of students coming to talk to her about their own sexual assaults—some of them as children, but many of them as young adults.

Grace says she offered counseling and support, but whenever she informed the students of their legal rights, they insisted they did not want to pursue them. She was frustrated but sympathetic; after all, she had not reported Sabal for many of the reasons her students were offering now.

She was driving home from work one evening, after staying late to talk to yet another student survivor, when it struck her that none of those reasons applied to her anymore. She had a supportive partner, a loving family, and was far away from the industry that had made her feel too powerless and vulnerable to speak out.

“A light bulb clicked,” she said. “I couldn’t believe that I hadn’t realized until that moment that this person holds no power over me anymore.”

Grace knew that New York had recently passed a law called the Adult Survivors Act, which gave survivors a one-year “lookback window” to file lawsuits over assaults that occurred outside the statute of limitations. But the window closed in mid-November, and she was running out of time.

Determined not to miss her chance to speak out again, Grace reached out to four different law firms about filing a case under the act. To her surprise, the attorneys told her she had a strong case. None were willing to represent her on a contingency basis, however, because she was not filing suit against a notably wealthy person or a corporation.

So Grace decided she would finance the suit on her own. Working with attorneys from McAllister Olivarius, she drafted a complaint accusing Sabal of assault and sexual battery, and Bondar of negligence. They filed on Nov. 22—one day before the Adult Survivors Act window closed.

Ashley Grace

Photo Illustration by Luis G. Rendon/The Daily Best/Getty/Handout

Sabal has not responded to the suit, and Grace’s lawyers have been unable to serve him. (In a motion filed this week, her legal team detailed the lengths they went to to track him down, including hiring a private investigator.) He no longer lives in New York; a glowing profile in a local newspaper published in 2015 says he returned to his hometown in Arizona to teach photography at a community college. The school, Cochise College, told The Daily Beast he had not worked there since May 2016.

Grace doesn’t know whether she’ll ever get to see Sabal in court, much less get the judgment she desires. She has had to divorce her feelings around the case from her desire from any specific outcome; her happiness from the agreement of a judge or jury.

She simply wants the chance to take a stand, she said; to do what she did not feel strong enough to do at 19, or 25, or even 30.

“I want to be able to look at my kids and to say, ‘You don’t have the right to do this to other people. Other people don’t have the right to do this to you,’” she said. “And have them be able to see that when someone did it to their mom, she lived that value out: She held somebody accountable.”

“To me, it’s more about standing behind what I so deeply believe, which is that you don’t get to do this to other people,” she added. “And if I didn’t file this lawsuit, I would’ve lost my only opportunity potentially to be able to say, ‘You don’t get to do this to me.’”